Birthday Goals: Update 1
Current mood: 
aggravated
Category: Life
Just wanted to give updates on my progress…
1. Stop smoking completely. – I haven’t had a cigarette in 15 hours. I’m bouncing off the walls right now. I live with 2 smokers, and every time I hear a Zippo flick or see a cigarette, it makes me want one so bad. I’m used to having one with my morning coffee, going without that one was hard. I usually have one each time I take a break form being at the computer, and one after every meal. I just ate, and the desire for a smoke was really strong. I’ve quit before, but I didn’t have any other smokers around. The temptation is horrible. But I’m going to try to stick with it. I figure after a few days it ought to get easier. (I hope)
2. Lose 8 lbs. – I’ve gained 2 lbs. BUT… It’s that time of the month, so I’m not going to stress on it too much. I always gain a little, then lose it a week later. I’ve decided too that I’m not going to diet for this. When I first got to GA, I lost 35 lbs. in about 8 months, and I was actually eating less healthy than I was in PA. But I had less stress in GA, and I was more active. So I’m just going to do my best to lower my stress levels, be happy, and work out.
3. Flatten my abs and tone up all over. – No progress. I did realize that if I get to toning and building muscle, muscle weighs more than fat and I may negate my goal above, but if I look better and feel better, I’m not going to care much about numbers anymore.
4. Get the kinks worked out of my herbal regimen and be in better overall health. – I figured out a way to make my tea stronger so that I don’t have to drink quite so much. I managed to get a grinder, and the tea comes out a lot stronger with powdered herbs than it did with whole herbs. Tastes like hell now (well, not the worst I’ve ever had, but not uber-yummy), but it’s stronger. Should make life a bit easier.
5. Find a way to make money online again. – Changing goal: Find a way to make more money.
6. Work on some of my flaws and become a better person. – Made a bit of progress yesterday. Learning better restraint. Someone was really annoying me with their behavior, and I REALLY wanted to tell them off, but instead I went off and did something else until I had cooled down and could come back and say something that wasn’t rude or hurtful. Turned out better than it probably would have if I’d said the first thing that came into my head.
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So, overall I’m happy with the way this is going. Oh, and my throat isn’t sore anymore, and the tooth is feeling better. Turns out I’m cutting another d@mn wisdom tooth. I’m SO too old for this cutting teeth cr@p. But the pain is less now, so I can actually chew again. I KNOW it’s gonna end up hurting again, the other 2 that came in still push more every now & then, but once they break the gums, the worst is over. I’ll have days now where it hurts, but I’ll suck it up. At least it’s not hellish, so I can think and function again.
calm 
exhausted 
