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You know, it’s interesting how typing out what I’m thinking and feeling can make me feel better. I guess it’s kind of like having someone to talk to, even if it is just a keyboard and screen. I suppose when I blog there’s always the chance that I’ll have actual communication, even if I’m not getting it when I originally do the writing.

I suppose I really do like to express myself. I don’t have a lot of people that I can talk to, and I really don’t get out much at all. Writing is just one of those things that I can do to get the thoughts out of my head so that there’s room for other stuff. It get’s pretty cluttered in my head sometimes, lemme tell ya. I’m really glad for one thing: I haven’t been having nearly as many negative thoughts as I used to. I don’t spend as much time dwelling on crap I can’t change either. Granted, the presence of certain people still gets on my nerves, but the universe has been helping me out on that one, and I’m definitely glad for that.

I hope that this trend continues. It’s taken me so long to get to this point. It’s not like I’ve never made progress before, but it feels like this time is different. It feels like it will really stick this time, and that things are really going to change for the better.

Whenever something bad happens, I try to think of something I’d like better. I try to think of something good. I’ve found ways to do it without feeling like I’m lying to myself, and I think that helps a lot. I tried the whole “I have…” way of thinking, and that really didn’t do it for me. You know, like “I have all the money I need.” or “I have a rich and fulfilling life.” Those are lies, and they don’t work. My new method is working a whole lot better.

Now all I need to do is figure out what kind of thoughts will get the bird to quit screaming all day, and we’ll really be in business.

Related posts:

1. More writing, but I feel like cr@p
2. A little more about my poetry
3. Mental exercises, but not what you think
4. The new way of thinking, and friends
5. Actually started writing again

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