These last few days have just been so different. Different in a good way. I’d go so far as to say in a great way. I’m feeling happy. Nothing special has happened, just a shift, and it’s amazing. I love it. This needs to be a permanent way of life.
I’m smiling over little stuff. I’m giggling and laughing and feeling… light? Joyful? Some kind of good stuff I’m not used to, that’s for sure. I just feel… better. Nice. Hopeful. It’s very cool. And when the other ugly stuff tries to creep in, I’m finding myself able to just brush it off and get the good feeling back. I even rebooted my day today and it’s now going awesomely. It feels so easy, natural and so wonderful.
I wish I knew what I did or what happened to cause this shift. I’d love to be able to tell you all so maybe you could do it too, if your life’s less than great right now. I want that so much, but I have no idea. I think it was a bunch of little things. I listened to some spiritual interviews, I decided I wanted to be happier, I started doing tarot again, I joined Happify… All these things and maybe more have all just come together and now I can feel the shift that’s happening.
I always wondered what the gurus meant when they talked about “the shift”. Now I get it. I’ve been doing better and better over the years, but something was still missing. Something wasn’t quite there yet. I feel like this is it. This is that shift happening. For the first time I really and truly FEEL like life is getting better. I FEEL that good things are right around the corner. I’m not just hoping and wishing and trying to believe, I’m feeling it. It’s actually making me start to cry right now, it’s that powerful.
And it’s happening to Eric too. My god he’s just turning a leaf and it’s beautiful to see. He’s got this happy, goofy joy, he’s motivated and hopeful and sweet, and I’m loving it. After some really rough patches in the last handful of months, I’m loving him again, and there aren’t words enough to describe how good that feels. It’s kind of like falling in love for the first time again.
I want to feel like this more often. Man, I could so get used to this! I’m going to hold onto it, cherish it, nurture it. This is what I want my life to feel like. And it feels like more good is just ready to start coming my way. It feels like the change is happening now, and it’s beautiful. I can’t wait to see how good things get from here!