One of the challenges I’m constantly facing is how to maintain faith when there is no proof. I’m not talking about a higher power, I’m talking about the general belief that things will get better or change. If all you’ve ever had is what you’ve got, and you’ve never seen it get better, how do you continue to believe that it ever will?
I go through waves of depression over this issue. I want to believe, I want to have faith that my day is coming, and someday I’ll be able to look back on this shit life and it will just be an ugly memory. The thing is, it doesn’t change. I know what I want, I work for it, I pray for it, I try to believe in it, and it doesn’t come. It’s disheartening to say the least.
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